faeth

oh dear

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 21:14:07 GMT

random moments with heart-breaking outcomes

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 20:40:26 GMT

my summer has been the hardest summer I have ever had but also the greatest..
I got to see the oregan coast for my birthday..learned that you will spend the rest of your life weeding out the bad friendships in your life..went back to idaho for a week..which was amazing I love going home because with my family you always fit...no matter where you go, what you have done, how long you have been gone..the spot that you left when you went away it always waiting for you to fill it back up...I love my family...I also got to spend time with my friends that I only get to see once a year..I also got to see my friend tim after 5 years...interesting times..I started treatment again which isn't fun at all...I all so went back to school and with that I leave you all because I have midterms to study for and a speech to write..

I want to go back to texas so bad.....

sadness

Wed, 10 May 2006 01:27:25 GMT

I really hate money.........

I can't afford to go to texas this summer........

bloody hell

my heart hurts now

you've earned the right to know the truth

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 22:18:21 GMT

Life was a way of twisting and turning, making waves that you didn't think could ever happen..oh and how massive they are...so you think to yourself maybe this time I'll be safe, maybe this time I won't be crushed, maybe this time I'll win.....

but you never will...

life has a way of being so perfect..that one night were for once no one cares about what each other thinks and friends laugh like they haven't laughed before...that one day when even the weather is perfect and you spend the day hanging out with people who would do anything for you...

and then there are those days when there isn't any waves or laughter, there isnt anyone in sight...cut off and alone...you struggle to make it through this day and pray that the next one won't be like this one....and you pray that you'll have more good days then bad days but in the back part of your mind hope is failing because bad days are all you have had

See You by saves the day

My gut is burning. Won't you find me some water?
Hey, just forget it can you bring me gasoline
and collect a couple forks, hold them three feet apart
and wait for lightning to strike to burn me up?
Cause I don't think that I've got the stomach to
stomach calling you today.
My head is swirling. It's been carried off in the sky
and where it lands is where is lands.
So I guess that I will get another head and then get on with my life
and leave you somewhere beneath the waves of time.
And I'll wear glass shoes and plastic wrap.
No, I'll just wear my insides.
You want to know who I really am?
Yeah so do I, yeah so do I.
Cause I don't think that I've got the stomach to
stomach calling you today.
Right now I am turning off the lights
cause I don't think that I've got the stomach to
stomach calling you today.

this song reminds me of someone

It's come to my attention,

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 01:06:39 GMT

that I have fallen in love with this boy's heart..brillant..in fact what I love is when you met someone and in the beginning stages of the friendship you get to see glimpse of their hearts and that's what I love

I update myspace and xanga more then I do livejournal...

I told my mom about having cancer and being in remission...

-interesting-

I have been enjoying the sun alot lately..tonight while hanging out with joe and richie I had the strangest urge to disappear like I use too..I am not sure I like that feeling...I thought it only happens in Idaho not anywhere else...oh well maybe I really did belong in texas..I am going to the one place I will always belong and find comfort in..

I need to buy a new record player...

FAETH, YOU DIDN'T!!!!!!!

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 00:10:22 GMT

I did and you know what it was fun...hahaha last night what a busy night...

so Last Saturday Night I saw...COPELAND and THE STARTING LINE...AMAZING!

except for the fog machine made it hard for me to breathe..

isn't the picture of me and joan or arc cute...aww I love my turtle

Happy Endings are not in my future

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 04:23:46 GMT

It seems to me that I may not have much time to be the person I know I could be or can be..the Woman of God I long to be..seems hopeless.....my quest to be loved, adored and noticed without drawing attention upon myself...I can't say I blame anyone for leaving me..I would of left myself a long time ago...but then I don't want to be left behind nor I do I ever want to leave someone behind no matter how much I dislike them...I feel taken for granted Like I took my Creator for granted...he still loves no matter what I do..I feel lost and alone and I hate that feeling but it is ever present still...Notice the ones who are left to fend for themselves..Take them under you wings..stronger are you in numbers then alone..

my eyes are getting blurry with tears and my heart slows it's beat

It's getting harder to hold on..my reminder

----Promise---by spoken

Yet another day seems like it's wasted
You don't feel your any closer to the prize
A dead end job where there's no future
Praying that tomorrow, things won't be this way

[Chorus]
Things will get better this I promise you
And I know that you won't feel this way forever
Things will get better this I promise you
And I know, loneliness won't last forever

Yet another day, another tired morning
You're catching up to your intentions
You're thinking, life has to be easier than this
Maybe tomorrow things won't be this way

[Chorus]
[Chorus]
Loneliness won't last forever
I promise, with all that's in me
To leave this emptiness behind.

[Chorus]
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last night

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 04:10:33 GMT

well Taylor and I went party hopping....umm yeah......we went to vanessa's first...did a couple of shots..then we left that party went to laurens party it was so lame, so we left...got lost trying to find ro aka rockstar's house...finally found it..we were met out front by ro and devon with the biggest hugs ever! did shots again...leah ( I think that was her name) made the most amazing drinks..wow...talked to everyone...met my long lost best friend sarah and the boy I am in love with...rang in the new year with the raddest people ever! well except for my friends in texas...but alas i wasn't there...anyways talk to people on the phone drunk...learned that taylor left me for another party..which was fine because I didn't want to leave..also learned that meds and alchol don't mix...spent the rest of the night getting taken care of by the most beautiful boy with red hair I have ever seen.....yeah.....in the morning ross woke me up by putting his face against mine..talk about having a heart attack.. got taken care of by michael because bob was sleeping...also michael made me pancakes....no one has ever made me pancakes before..except for my dad....got huged and stuff by bob...he promised to vist me at work...

umm yeah that was my new years

oh how i adore you my dear

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 07:38:45 GMT

for holloween I was patricia from horrorpops..of course no one knew who she was...bitches....

but anyways life has been so good.......Skye told me tonight that I have the boys at work under my spell...I replied like I have you under my spell? she replied it's your bewitching personality...hahaha that's so rad...

I got the raddest postcard the other day from the one and only CHRISTI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn I wish I had the money to fly out and hang out with her and the rest of the gang...even if it's not the same with out jenna..

I am buying a record player tommorow...and I should really be asleep right now..I have to open at JCpennys ....I have been opening at best buy all week and I hate mornings...I am so buy coffee in the am...

my sister got married on sunday and I wasn't there..the jerk

so much has been going on right now I wish I could find the words to write everything down but I am not talented in that....

sometimes

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 04:55:21 GMT

I want to stay in bed and hide.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................someone make my days brighter and happier...........

when I start to complain about how I work too much Remind me

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 22:19:52 GMT

that I love to stay busy...or something like that..

I have been working at lot at Best Buy..I love it

who texted me the other night asking me to come vist?

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful
But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself
You're the perfect blend of independent and caring
You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

Your Inner Retro Girl Is

1950s Doll

What Retro Girl Are You?

i feel sad..tired...and...............................

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 02:08:35 GMT

even though I love it here..I miss my friends, having a job that pays really well..having money to pay my bills...not having stress...........

i have worked a total of 10 hours this week..not good..i had to sell my bass so i could pay rent but that's all the money i have.....i have a job interview on monday at best buy.....yesterday was pay day and my check was only 227 dollors..wait what? i was paid for the month of august but what about the first two weeks of this month? shouldn't i have been paid for those days as well? i am so confused..i need money

it's been to long and now my head hurts

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 17:28:31 GMT

christi i need your address again...I have a postcard with your name on it..

so i went back to idaho for vicki's wedding and had alot of fun....i am working all week and i am going to get another job

i need more money for rent and stuff

portland has hot guys

this one goes out to christi

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 03:51:41 GMT

thanks for the postcard!!! and i am so ready to come back to texas

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 06:07:59 GMT

I don't work again until monday...I wish I had money I'd go somewhere

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 21:25:34 GMT

Christi's birthday is sunday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY EARLY

I like portland

I get to see my friends in hawthorn, dizmas, echocast and more

send postcards please

NEW ADDRESS

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 20:11:41 GMT

it is

FAETH JACOBSON
6224 SE 55th
Portland, Or 97206

so write me letters,post cards and send care packages

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 22:42:27 GMT

last night's show was a good one........Keoni missed me and I missed him

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 15:09:12 GMT

keoni will be here tommorow..I guess he's excited to see me..strange

anyone got tips on relieving stress? I am so stress that my face is looking bad and my kidneys are hating me..help

Idaho has been hot..I leave monday for PORTLAND YAY! I get to go home and see my odd roommates..I get to see Josh and Bryce and others...

I need to get postcards in the mail--also I need everyone's addresses.

I am addicted to homestarrunner.com

and so it goes on...and on...and so on

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 15:56:50 GMT

so let's recap shall we....on friday I worked until 8pm, went to suni's (her house looked like someone broke into it, but it was just really messy) got her girls victoria and zoe..went to nikki's and traded cars..went to boise to my other mom's house at 11:30p.m. went to bed at 2am woke up at 8 am..got the girls bathed and dressed then I got ready...went to the zoo for 2 hours, it was alot of fun..went to the mall bought make-up and shoes.. then we went back to mom's house and watched a movie while zoe' took an hour nap..my mom (marleen) and Shannen got home then we went out for pizza..came home and watched a bug's life..put the girls to bed..watched part of the jacket before i fell asleep....and on sunday we went to church and then came back to twin...took the girls to their grandma's..cleaned suni's house part of it anyways..went to church with my little sister...then i met up with cindy ate at applebee's then cindy and i went to the drive-in with my sister beth...we saw herbie and hitchhickers guide to the galixy which was a great movie.....Laramie called me at 12am texas time to wish me happy birthday...went home around 2:30 am slept in until 11am.my mom made me walffles...got dressed and then went to suni's and finished cleaning and doing her laundry..had to be at work at 2pm....my grandma made me a birthday cake..my sister shanna called me a 6am to say happy birthday..went home around 8pm trade back cars with nikki's..watched fire works then i passed out..my birthday sucked except for when people called me to say happy b-day..missy,vicki,tisha,simon and cindy. thanks to everyone else who left me birthday messages..jenna, ben and so on...

I saw biertone and pistolita on tuesday night..had a lot of fun wiith them..cory from pistolita got my number and then surprised me by texting me so that i would have his number...

last night i worked and then went home cleaned the house, then went to bed..and today i am back at work..yeah

next thursday keoni and his band will be here with the secret handshake...yay!

my birthday sucked

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 16:50:07 GMT

-UNWANTED-
kill hannah

I dedicate this song to the boys who don't belong, to the girls who get it wrong. I'm dedicating this to the ones who don't exist. Are you hearing this? Unwanted, Unneeded. You've always been mistreated. Hang on! ( Don't do what they say to) Unwanted, and been for so long say, "Hey Mom! I'm never going home again!" I dedicate this song to my boys who are strong, they just don't go along. I'm dedicating this song to the girls who don't fit in from the orphanage. Now hear this! Unwanted, Unneeded We've always been frustrated. Hang on! ( Don't do what they say to) Unwanted, and been forever said, "Hey Mom! We're never going home again!' I dedicate this song to the ones who don't belong. Unwanted. To the ones who don't belong, I know who you are. Hang on! We're never going home again.

blah blah

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 22:55:40 GMT

Joanna's birthday is sunday and she will be 21 so HAPPY BIRTHDAY early..I remember turning 21 the only good thing about turning 21 is cheaper car insurance and 21 and over shows..yea

tonight suni and i are going out for my birthday because she won't be here..Sniff..and neither will kenny..double sniff...that's alright they will own me so big...

my birthday is monday and i will be 23 eww

oh my gosh oh my gosh

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 14:47:06 GMT

I was thanked in the cedits of my friends band's cd...that has never happened before. I am always overlooked....I cried when I saw it..I don't know why it bothered me so much, but it did...I don't think I have ever told anyone that it bothered me except for suni...

my birthday is this the forth of july

dairy is a killer

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 15:14:37 GMT

last night i had cheese pizza...i thought i was going to die....i broke out in hives and had the worst stomach ache ever...why do i have to be allergic to dairy...

anyways yesterday I worked from 8:30am to 6:30pm..went to suni's, as I walked in the door I said that I think I am having sex in my sleep because my inner thighs hurt so bad..kenny said faeth i already knew that..bloody hell...we were going to go to the movies but suni couldn't find a baby-sitter so we deceided to do nothing..well kenny had a new knife and stabbed himself a number of times..then kenny and i left and went to eat at jade's..mmmhhmmmm so good...went back to suni's where we sat outside and took strange pictures....then rob called from iraq and suni was a very happy girl...now I am back at work..I need to pay rent and stuff...I need to find another job in portland..I think I am working 8:30am to 8:30pm tonight suck! then I am staying at suni's tonight unless I get the urge to sleep in my own bed which is the case most of the time

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 15:00:21 GMT

today dizmas cd is out in stores....how strange...instead of talking to nick i think i talked to jon instead......whatever Kenny,Suni and I went shopping ( we went to the mall,I haven't been to the mall in over a year) then we went bowling..I can't bowl to save my life...went back to suni's were we just messed around I like to bite kenny on the neck.....